I drink from the great mother

This is a painting I did recently I call it "I drink from the great mother".

The great mother is nourishing Adelaide the place where I live with her milk (which represents the nourishment that comes from the divine "source").

Gross technology... leads to?

So there is an interesting concept.

That many of the current technologies are gross forms of the more subtle technologies. Yogananda mentions in Autobiography of a Yogi about how television and radio, help to bridge the gap between distances in that a person who is very far away can manifest on the television screen or radio, if one takes this further it could be that this is a pre-dicursor to being able to materialise the physical form at will somewhere, or being able to impart messages telepathically into peoples minds etc.

We are in a time currently where the gross technologies are widely used and explored, and perhaps people have such interest in these things because they are in preperation for the future when the more subtle forms will be more well known, and people will be educated about them.

Burden of Karma

I was thinking today that relationship is all all about sharing the burden of karma, and relationships fail when for whatever reason someone is unable to bare the karmic burden of another.

So when you feel repulsed by someone and can not love them, one could say it is because you are not able to share in that persons karmic burden. For instance, a person who has killed many people, it is easier to say that person is evil, or bad, and dislike them, because then you avoid having to suffer along with the karmic weight the individual would feel from doing such actions.

The more you are able to bare the pain and suffering of others, the less likely you are to have limitations on your ability to love.

If feeling the pain for someone helps to slightly lesson their load, then it is something to rejoyce about, because your love is doing its function to help another, but so often we might want to avoid people who are highly depressed, or full of other forms of anguish because we can not handle baring some of their karmic burden.

I have had this happen before in the past I have come across people I just couldn't bare the karmic burden of and sought distance from them, perhaps because naturally its my tendancy to help by experiencing some of the pain or anguish a person may feel, so they will experience it not so strongly, and because of that occuring, I was easily drained. I may have the tendancy to do so, but I am not yet able to do so without not being able to handle it - so that means my ego is still involved.

It is probably the case that I still have a needyness when it comes to people, so its hard to not have the ego freak out in such situations and want to distance myself.

Maybe I am also unwilling to bare the collective karma of suffering in relation to doing mundane tasks. The suffering of having to waist away in a monkey position when one feels there is so much untapped talent within onself. I run from such feelings more then anything.

I guess I know my natural tendancy is to love, and to want to help bare the burden, but I'm not always able to go through with it, its that self-preservation mechanism.

Self-preservation... based on fear, fear of the loss os self, perhaps the fear is there because I think if I dont take a strong "stance" on something, that the universe will just push me into a worse scenario. Maybe I sense my default karma is really not that great, and a lot of work is needed in the area, and so I must make it really clear to all involved that I am not doing this or that. Trying so hard to convince myself not to fall back into patterns of a defeatist attitude.

So when you say you love someone, ask yourself if your really willing to share in their karmic burden? Because love will lead you along that path whether you like it or not...

Attraction and repulsion... interesting phenomena.