Trauma

My life has taught me that no-one can really be relied on and that relying on a temporary form is pointless anyway.

That is my desire to not develop attachment to temporary forms, the water element aspect of memory can really really hold on to impressions.... it is painful to miss those who you are attached to... and slowly over time I have been able to stop making those attachments, and now I do not place security on others so it is not very pronounced....

Physical pain from injury is much worse... there is more fear and worry about loosing functioning ability and what that means for the future. Even in someone like me who has never really felt to strongly attached to my physical body.

Fear and panic and trauma. The way the body holds on to trauma is rather odd, the body memory that is there... one can really relate to the animal forms in this way, in the ways that animals are constantly traumatised in this day and age.

I like to try and self-heal, and put my faith in deities and other natural therapy techniques, of course it is also a time to reflect about what I am doing wrong in my life and make some changes.