"who absorbs knowledge rather than acquires it through hard study."
I notice when I am learning Chinese, I get into these weird states, where I feel all spacey, and my mind is over ether-ised, almost like entering into a different brainwave state. But often I am surprised how I actually know something or remember something, because I don't feel completely in the room or even that my attention focus is very strong and one pointed.
The main time I feel a real fire intense focus on something is if I am chanting, I feel my mind really hone in on the words, almost like a swooping vulture it feels like.
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Thinking about my instinctual reaction to education institutions once I passed puberty, my way of relating too schooling changed quite a bit, I actually started to feel it was like a prison, a torture of the mind having to go to high school, and I've had an aversion to Universities also - the moment I am there I suddenly feel weak and lethargic -like they sap away all my energy, I also feel extremely angry and irritated at such places. I remember at high school a few times I felt like the walking dead, .and distinctly feeling there was something "un-real" about the whole thing - as in it was a fake institution.
I've since trusted that all places I feel drained of life force - are not good places for me to be, same with shopping malls, department stores, offices, etc.
Ideally I would think the best education would be just being able to be totally receptive, and receiving it from a higher source already formed.
Better to be like a sponge and soak it up.
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